Boot straps

I've got to the point in the pandemic where I just don't have the energy for anything. This has happened before, many times, but now I feel the mechanism for pulling myself up by the boot straps isn't working as well as it has in the past. Woah is me, right? Boo hoo for the…

I’m not crying

...it was more like bleeding than crying. ~ Stephen King, Cujo Anyone else a massive fan of cathartic crying? I feel like it's all I've done for the past fortnight. Everything - and I mean everything - has set me off. Adverts, songs, movies, thinking about old friendships that are no more, dogs' big wet…

Tatu

Just before lockdown lifted enough for us to start doing our usual 'beauty' bits, a couple of colleagues and I were talking about the things we were most looking forward to doing for ourselves. One friend was chomping at the bit to get back into her stylist's chair and drop god knows how much on…

Not just a film blog

Remember when I spent time on this blog reflecting on mental health issues and the things, beyond film, that made me happy? Somewhere along the line I lost the will to be creative and although I've started a myriad of posts about how I've been feeling, I just couldn't see them through. The jury's out…

Bambi’s mum

I haven't written anything personal for myself in a long time. The truth is I've been very up and down mentally. When I was a kid I used to have anxiety about the fact I felt numb a lot of the time. I thought I was abnormal because the usual things that evoked emotion in…

Animal Farm: New Horizons

I'm about three lockdowns behind but I finally treated myself to Animal Crossing: New Horizons on the Nintendo Switch and boy has life taken on new meaning. Glynn bought the Switch last year and it's been gathering dust under the bed pretty much ever since - so I knew I could probably commandeer it for…

Roads

So Boris has released the government's road map back to normality and it's with mixed feelings that I contemplate what it means. If all goes according to plan, all social restrictions will be lifted by 21 June. That's four months away. Which seems like ages but is also not that long at all. Could the…

Gone witchin’

One thing I've really noticed since the first lockdown - and moving to a home I love - is the fact that dust is a serious thing. I knew it was real but how does it gather so quickly? I actually dust my books and surfaces now (some of them) and it feels like I'm…

Mama do the hump

This week started on a high - maybe too high - but today has really lived up to its name. I've felt very deflated, with all good intention wafting out the door. I guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles these days, in Lockdown Life. I've taken to standing at the front window looking…

Thinking and feeling

It's a funny old time, isn't it? In the UK, we're in the midst of a third lockdown and just getting on with things as best we can. And doing the same no doubt, wherever we are in the world. I'm not sure how I feel because it changes from hour to hour. Sometimes minute…